๐—ช๐—ต๐˜† ๐—œ ๐——๐—ผ๐—ปโ€™๐˜ ๐—›๐—ฎ๐˜๐—ฒ ๐— ๐˜† ๐—˜๐˜…-๐—–๐—ต๐—ฒ๐—ฎ๐˜๐—ฒ๐—ฟ ๐—•๐—ณ?

๐™„๐™ฉ was late at night when I called my friends for a coffee or a beer outside but none of them were available except for Sham. He was with me on my low peak season. I was 24. We used to be colleagues and had our own relationships when we met. Weโ€™re good friends, no special attraction, we just jived along really well. I liked his wit about anything, what a smart-ass! Heโ€™s very opinionated and his sense of humor was just awesome.One day I woke up and found myself โ€œ๐™Š๐™ ๐™๐™š๐™ฎ ๐™ฌ๐™ค๐™ง๐™ก๐™™! ๐™„โ€™๐™ข ๐™Ž๐™„๐™‰๐™‚๐™‡๐™€โ€. It took months to move on from my first ever relationship. Iโ€™ve asked for signs and seen all in him so I thought heโ€™s the one. And honestly I quit believing on each of them. Maybe the signs were not all made to support my fantasy. After the break up with my ex bf, Sham had been more consistent not the courting part cause we never had that I think but yeah he always sent me sweet and long comforting messages to make me feel okay, going out for dinner, coffee and talk endlessly about life, the happy and embarrassing moments, weird people, rude clients, how to train dogs as per Cesar Milan, know the alpha wolf from the rest of the pack, favourite series, how much he loves Nina Dobrev and Blake Lively and claiming Adam Levine my future husband next life, those silly stuffs. Nothing much of a heart talk. I enjoyed the terms and the status of officially dating each other, barely the closest I can describe right now. Monthsary wasnโ€™t our big thing, canโ€™t remember when exactly but it was closed to Christmas when he said he loves me and it all started there.

๐™๐™–๐™จ๐™ฉ ๐™๐™ค๐™ง๐™ฌ๐™–๐™ง๐™™.. It lasted for few years. The relationship was based more on friendship rather than the typical couple youโ€™ll see walking down the street or cinemas, celebrating Valentineโ€™s Day with the candle lights, or me getting a bouquet of flowers. Surprises? Nah! Heโ€™s the worst believe me. He did once on my birthday, he bought shoes but an inch longer than my foot size. Usually heโ€™d ask me to get dress and pick me up to do shopping and buy what I want or just go wherever for a good lunch/dinner, movie and ride on his big bike, whatever. Heโ€™s pretty outgoing. Works for me too. Heโ€™s one of the sweetest person Iโ€™ve ever known. We did plenty of adventures on the road , weโ€™ve grown and get matured together, heโ€™s the first person I run to when Iโ€™m happy or excited or even when in trouble. And so as he. Thatโ€™s what I appreciate the most about us, being a cast on every episode nevertheless in every scene.

A simple and quiet night twist the story. I donโ€™t think he meant to ever hurt me but he had. I knew he was dating someone else months before. I can act angry and upset and yell and kick and scream but I didnโ€™t instead I prepared myself and moved on, tried living a life I never had. That’s too early to be swept away but the appetizer was served and the main course has finally arrived. I managed to keep myself composed which made me sound like the most pathetic person youโ€™ll ever know. The moment he spit out the truth I felt relieved and shattered. I was waiting for that very second but felt different when youโ€™re actually hearing it. I was okay but disappointed. I was hurt but chose to accept it. I was too nice for that lie (or maybe I wasnโ€™t). I loved him but itโ€™s over. I canโ€™t hate him because I knew how much he loved and cared for me (well before the cheating part). And I canโ€™t give another chance because we deserved a good life separately. He was crying and I wasnโ€™t, done weeks ago during my sleepless nights. I told him words that sure did melt and broke his heart in a nice way. We had a heart to heart talk and mutually released both ends of the string. We kept the show going to avoid the intriguing questions of our friends or anyone around us โ€œwhy we broke upโ€. Until I left the country. Thatโ€™s a trick to my graceful exit.

Iโ€™m a fan of happy ever after endings in every movie. I mean, who doesnโ€™t? We may have different perceptions of happy endings and in most cases, itโ€™s the love affair that catches two people completely off-guard and end up in wedding bells and colorful confetti. That’s obviously not my story. But I truly believe that if youโ€™re not a good a fit then you wonโ€™t. Breakups are blessings too. Donโ€™t let it defeat you instead rise stronger and be more resilient. Itโ€™s always a matter of choice, choose wisely. Iโ€™m happy with where I am now, how far I’ve come, whoever I am with. I just feel very blessed that God brought me here with the decisions I’ve made, which probably woudn’t happen if maybe I wasnโ€™t being cheated on. So it’s not always a bad thing, sometimes it’s even more like a lucky charm. At least for me.-๐Ÿ๐Ÿงฟ

How do you deal with ๐™—๐™ง๐™š๐™–๐™ ๐™ช๐™ฅ๐™จ? What works for you? I would love to hear about it!

Anu Babu

I see you wearing armour to cover up yourself from the world full of peopleโ€™s opinion, disappointments, harsh words, society that is sometimes unbearable.

But I hope you enjoy the perks of being young.

I hope you enjoy your identity.

I hope you find you.

I hope you find love.

I hope you see the beauty of life, the coloured and the dark sides.

I hope youโ€™re excited about your future because something great is reserved for you.

Remember,

Itโ€™s okay to fail and still be proud of yourself.

Itโ€™s okay to shine even if others think you donโ€™t deserved that light.

Itโ€™s okay to cry in front of your friends and still feel loved.

Itโ€™s okay to be weak and call yourself an achiever.

Itโ€™s okay to try new things and discover your gift.

Itโ€™s okay to hear and obey the list of doโ€™s and donโ€™ts of your parents. For one day you will realize, damn! They’re right.

Itโ€™s okay to say no when everyone say yes.

This world is free, whatever youโ€™re going through you have the choice to make for yourself.

Trust that what is meant for you is relying on you to show up.

You may lose your confidence at certain point but you can never lose your spirit. Never!

I wish you enough time to prove yourself how blessed, skilled and talented you are.

I wish you more revelations than disrespects and regrets.

I wish you live the way youโ€™ve prayed on your sincerest and dreamed from your innermost heart.

I wish you a good life beyond what you can share on your social media accounts to show that you matter.

But mostly,

I wish you a fulfilling younger years to inspire people of your age someday when you get older.

Much love,- ๐Ÿ

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๐—ฅ๐—ฒ๐—ฐ๐—น๐—ฎ๐—ถ๐—บ ๐—ช๐—ต๐—ฎ๐˜’๐˜€ ๐—•๐—ฒ๐—ฒ๐—ป ๐—ฅ๐—ฒ๐—ฝ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ๐˜€๐˜€๐—ฒ๐—ฑ

You can laugh out loud and scream loneliness when nobody is around. Who cares?You can fake it all for everyoneโ€™s great show, to satisfy them and if that satisfies you. But how long can you stand with that? Youโ€™re getting older, your life gets shorter, youโ€™ve got one life to live and millions of choices to make, that is huge and if you donโ€™t know what your true needs are youโ€™re gonna be distorted and build lies to cover your guilty heart. You donโ€™t have to a be a slave of broken records in your life because we all have our own struggles, prayers that arenโ€™t answered, dreams that are still dreams, wounds that keeps on bleeding, at some point we have passed the same phase, it’s just that others don’t let these feelings stop them. Donโ€™t protect yourself with another fear, youโ€™re not inadequate you are authentic. Do your innerwork, stop pleasing and appeasing others. Itโ€™s not going to work out. If temporary approval of the society gives you a self-worth, youโ€™re lost. Come back! Don’t waste your life waiting for the freedom when you can set it yourself. Reclaim what has been repressed.-๐Ÿ