Sitting next to the glass window of 9th floor right on spot view of well-built architectures and busy bright lights on the street, cars moving everywhere trying to catch the day before it ends. I wonder why their weekend falls on Thursdays and Fridays whatโ€™s special on these days? Why not the usual Saturdays and Sundays? Facing the blank screen moving my cursor left and right puzzled of words hitting backspace and retype and backspace when the mocking blip from the boiling water just broke the silence ready to stir up my cup. Naively starring outside and see no stars could be the effect of the artificial lights in night sky that makes it hard to detect by own eyes just as how rare the rain shows up on this land. This isnโ€™t my first time coming here however itโ€™s different from all other days I took to this place. Maybe because the landscape is so magnificent? I donโ€™t think so. Could it be that itโ€™s such a beautiful night? Nah, that canโ€™t be. Maybe it had to do with the fact that my mind can freely travel the farthest my sight could the way my hands navigate right words on keyboards to fill in the blank page. Guess I just found my feet when nobody can get my butt in gear when it comes to things I couldnโ€™t do the whole week long. One great way to instill that feeling of happiness is simply sit in silence, for just few minutes, and just be. Observe the breath without inferring how slow or how fast it is going or what thoughts are coming and going and allow ourselves to actually feel our own presence. The presence of true self. The essence of who we are and this is what exactly I love about weekends when the birds are out of the cage and can freely soar highly in the sky.- ๐Ÿ

๐—™๐—ฟ๐—ถ๐—ฑ๐—ฎ๐˜† ๐—–๐—ผ๐—ป๐˜๐—ฒ๐—บ๐—ฝ๐—น๐—ฎ๐˜๐—ถ๐—ผ๐—ป ๐—ณ๐—ฟ๐—ผ๐—บ ” ๐—ฅ๐—ผ๐—ผ๐—บ 905 “

7 years ago I thought I had it perfect but I was wrong. I was frustrated, broken and confused. The only thing  Iฬถ rฬถeฬถmฬถeฬถmฬถbฬถeฬถrฬถ I want to remember was I prayed ,called my friends for dinner, dated my bff, made coffee in the mid of the night, watched Netflix, cry in between when it reached the tip point of my emotion, slept at 4am and just bothered my head thinking a lot of stuffs that was almost about to explode at any moment of time. Thatโ€™s how I coped in. As luck would have, it didnโ€™t last long. When one door closes ,the window opens for sure. While driving back to Ubud this was how the conversation went through with my bestfriend playing the music โ€œIt only gets better by Wildโ€. Thereโ€™s so much to look back and itโ€™s fun while years are passing by, and yes every story lies which part to shut down or leave behind, apparently not everything taste like freshly baked donuts. Because the reality is some scenes we want to bury in topsy-turvy site and just forget about it totally that even dog won’t be able to find, if good memory hurts. After 365 days youโ€™ll realized that itโ€™s over and doing better this time. Well, way better.

On our way to our woody Bungalow  weโ€™ve seen Balinese people placing offerings in front of small shrines in their houses, a thin stick of burning incense surrounded by brightly colourful flowers and petals that brings balance and peace. Itโ€™s enthralling to see how devoted they are when it comes to their spiritual practices that I donโ€™t normally witness back home. We tried to meet Cokorda, a Balinese healer  for the sake of trying but he’s not around, there are others but we got lazy finding them. Mostly we don’t have an itinerary ready, adventure happens along the road. Backpacks, sneakers and sometimes flip flops or bikes is all you need in Ubud. No need for clay fancy things. Respect that wonโ€™t cost an arm and leg, the basic and simplest you should always have.

There are significant situations Iโ€™ve come to learn of, much greater scale than my tale. When we lose control over the ball game, the missed opportunities, the uncomfortable circumstances, we easily get pressured and act stupid sometimes. It could break us apart but what we don’t realized is that God may have saved us from something worse and brought us closer to what we actually prayed for. Have faith in blessings in disguise. Disappointments and annoyances will come and go, we can’t stop those. But we can practice to live everyday not feeding our attention and emotions with all the negativity around. Let’s change how we think. Let’s see life in a perpective of being fortunate and happy, the more we will feel contented and blessed. This came out in my mind when we stopped in a local coffee shop as what we used to do. I just couldn’t contain my happiness and be thankful for what had happened to where it lead me now. I’m glad it did. Truly God is amazing. -๐Ÿ

๐—จ๐—ฏ๐˜‚๐—ฑ ๐——๐—ฟ๐—ถ๐˜ƒ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด – ๐—–๐—ผ๐—ณ๐—ณ๐—ฒ๐—ฒ ๐—–๐—ผ๐—ป๐—ณ๐—ฒ๐˜€๐˜€๐—ถ๐—ผ๐—ปโ˜•

Dear Kim,

Liking someone is okay. Crushes are normal. First love is cool. Those are the perks of being teenies. I’ve been on that road too. I get that. You might think you’re big enough but trust me, you are very young lady, really! You should have fun and enjoy the tick of the clock cause it will never be the same twice. There are plenty of beautiful things in the world that you must see so don’t rush to grow up. Be excited about life. Experience every stage of it. Don’t fall too hard. Love yourself first. Always! Always! Keep your pride as a young girl until the time comes right. I don’t know about this young boy but be the princess that wears her crown in her head and wouldn’t let her heart get defeated in any case, not yet. ๐Ÿ’œ

Love, Ninang

๐—” ๐—Ÿ๐—ฒ๐˜๐˜๐—ฒ๐—ฟ ๐—ง๐—ผ ๐— ๐˜† ๐—ก๐—ถ๐—ฒ๐—ฐ๐—ฒ

๐—Ÿ๐—ฎ๐˜๐—ฒ ๐—ง๐—ฎ๐—น๐—ธ๐˜€๐ŸŒ™

Had finished almost half of my coffee and it was passed 12 midnight. I got a call from a friend about the annulment she filed on her birthday. They got married for 8 years but they lost the spark between pain and hatred years after marriage. I asked if they really need to do that cause they have a daughter, but sheโ€™s done. Done being a wife to a monster (perhaps the kinder version). I can see her happy but not broken with the separation, in fact more excited to officially have her last name back. She started haunting some guys that fits her box of gems (you know the typical boy next door) with the long list of requirements. Well, all of us are crazy in particular ways, unfortunately it wasnโ€™t always the same as when we were in the early twenties. In her case, most of them are taken or not interested and that breaks her more. She started losing her confidence. I mean hey! Arenโ€™t you supposed to fix yourself first? Apparently, that doesnโ€™t work for her. She canโ€™t stay single for long, how do you think youโ€™ll find the right man when everything is all mess? I just couldnโ€™t blame her , but itโ€™s sad knowing every night she cries for the same reason of degrading herself. You never seem inlove with your ex husband ,why did you marry him? She said she tried, but trying wasnโ€™t enough. She thought love could be learned. Why not? When you have reasons and made a vow in the first place through thick and thin till death do you part. Itโ€™s a decision you choose everyday, but Iโ€™m not her. Not in her shoe to know what’s best or not. We could all go wrong picking people in our lives and there are days when the truth is not very appealing. Our minds have the capacity to create wonderful romantic fantasies and I don’t see a problem with that so long as you too know that reality exist. According to the brilliant de Botton, we mustnโ€™t abandon our flawed partners simply because our marriages arenโ€™t living up to childhood daydreams. It could be a lot of work but if you truly love the person it’s gonna be a different story and may not end up signing the papers.

Getting married is not the ONLY ticket to happiness. Yes, it feels amazing but that doesn’t come without some degree of commitment,compromise and sacrifice. Cause the real deal comes from fighting through the tough times and never giving up. It’s either you get rewarded or punished. ๐— ๐—ฎ๐—ฟ๐—ฟ๐˜† ๐˜๐—ต๐—ฒ ๐—ฝ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ๐˜€๐—ผ๐—ป ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚ ๐—น๐—ผ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ ๐—ณ๐—ผ๐—ฟ ๐˜„๐—ต๐—ฒ๐—ป ๐˜๐—ต๐—ฒ ๐˜๐—ถ๐—บ๐—ฒ ๐—ฐ๐—ผ๐—บ๐—ฒ๐˜€ ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚ ๐˜€๐˜๐—ฎ๐—ฟ๐˜๐—ฒ๐—ฑ ๐—น๐—ผ๐˜€๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด ๐˜๐—ต๐—ฒ ๐˜€๐—ฝ๐—ฎ๐—ฟ๐—ธ ๐—ฎ๐—ป๐—ฑ ๐—ฏ๐—ฒ๐—ด๐˜‚๐—ป ๐—ด๐—ฟ๐—ผ๐˜„๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด ๐—ฎ๐—ฝ๐—ฎ๐—ฟ๐˜ ๐˜๐—ต๐—ฒ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ’๐˜€ ๐˜€๐—ผ๐—บ๐—ฒ๐˜๐—ต๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด ๐˜๐—ผ ๐—น๐—ผ๐—ผ๐—ธ ๐—ฏ๐—ฎ๐—ฐ๐—ธ ๐˜๐—ต๐—ฎ๐˜ ๐—ผ๐—ป๐—ฐ๐—ฒ ๐˜‚๐—ฝ๐—ผ๐—ป ๐—ฎ๐—ป ๐—ผ๐—ฟ๐—ฑ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ฎ๐—ฟ๐˜† ๐—ฑ๐—ฎ๐˜† ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚ ๐—บ๐—ฒ๐˜ ๐—ฎ ๐˜€๐˜๐—ฟ๐—ฎ๐—ป๐—ด๐—ฒ๐—ฟ ๐—ฎ๐—ป๐—ฑ ๐—ณ๐—ฒ๐—น๐—น ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—น๐—ผ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ, ๐—ฑ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ๐—ฎ๐—บ๐—ฒ๐—ฑ ๐—ฎ๐—ฏ๐—ผ๐˜‚๐˜ ๐˜๐—ต๐—ฒ ๐—ณ๐˜‚๐˜๐˜‚๐—ฟ๐—ฒ ๐—ฎ๐—ป๐—ฑ ๐—ฝ๐—ฟ๐—ผ๐—บ๐—ถ๐˜€๐—ฒ๐—ฑ ๐—ผ๐—ณ ๐—ฎ ๐—น๐—ถ๐—ณ๐—ฒ๐˜๐—ถ๐—บ๐—ฒ ๐˜๐—ผ๐—ด๐—ฒ๐˜๐—ต๐—ฒ๐—ฟ. Go back to love like it’s the first time, go back to basic when things get rough, you figured it out once you’re gonna do it again. -๐Ÿ

*๐—•๐—ฎ๐˜๐—ต๐—ฟ๐—ผ๐—ผ๐—บ ๐—ถ๐˜€ ๐— ๐˜† ๐—ก๐—ฒ๐˜„ ๐—–๐—ถ๐˜๐˜†*

Yes, this place fits perfect. Away from the bees, just a relaxing presence of bubbles and water with a lemongrass scent or lavander. Well, this definitely a comfort of all my quirks from soulful soul to dirty secrets. Standing in front of the vanity mirror with my bareface, the large pores and the blemishes, I see myself, the flawed self. You can find me here on my happiest peak or silently crying during bad days. I don’t know but there’s something about bathrooms for real emotions and balance. I can just simply sit and play games or check out the latest trend in the newsfeed or simply call my friends and have some gossips. Or give me 10 minutes and I can set my mind for meditation that I couldn’t do in my room cause it’s more quiet and free from distractions. It’s like a sanctuary of escapism ,a short trip to a great hiding spot so long as you lock the door. Ooooppss๐Ÿคท๐Ÿผโ€โ™€๏ธ! -๐Ÿ

๐—•๐—น๐—ฒ๐˜€๐˜€ ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚๐—ฟ ๐—˜๐˜…*๐Ÿ–ค

๐—œ๐—ณ you’ve been cheated on๐Ÿฅ‚ *๐—ฐ๐—ต๐—ฒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ๐˜€**!You’re finally way out of a messy past.It’s tough, you’re broken,your world fell apart,you don’t deserved it,from top back on the ground starting from zero.It’s more painful than the word itself I know. And that’s okay. Good life awaits ahead, keep moving forward,continue chasing tomorrow. Never get tired to say thankyou.God may need to re align few things in your life to connect the dots towards a bigger picture of his masterpiece.He never disappoints,you have to believe that.He can’t take you further unless you trust his unknown ways.Hold your faith high even without seeing it beforehand.He breathed life into you not to be taken for granted by anyone but because you have a purpose,because you are special,because he loves you.๐™€๐™ญ๐™ž๐™จ๐™ฉ! Make it worthwhile.-๐Ÿ

๐—ฆ๐—ผ๐—บ๐—ฒ๐—ฑ๐—ฎ๐˜† ๐—ง๐—ต๐—ถ๐˜€ ๐——๐—ฎ๐˜†๐Ÿ‚

Is there a shortland to Mr. Perfect? I mean how many times should you date cool guys and just end up with a sigh? Or how many more signs will be added in your list to finally see him standing in front of your eyes? What about when you two meet there would be butterflies chasing around and just know that he’s the one? If only we could tell instantaneously like a flash of neon lights as how we describe then maybe it’ll make more sense. If only then we wouldnโ€™t missed the moment he pass by. Whether we admit or not, we are ought looking for something we never seem to find and wishing someone to bring it on the table. Weโ€™ve seen enough movies we fell head over heels and thought itโ€™s possible in a real world where we exist. For some people it happens that way. I call them the ๐—น๐˜‚๐—ฐ๐—ธ๐˜† ๐—ผ๐—ป๐—ฒ๐˜€. And for others love is no fairy tale so you can stop daydreaming and giving a damn hard to your heart. But there’s also law of attraction that everything we attract into our lives is a direct response of our thoughts and energies. The process may involve meeting some people with different purposes, so donโ€™t get attached as easy as shelling peas to every person you will get across. Love comes without searching for it, you just wake up one day leaving you feel amazed like the first sunny warm day after a really long and snowy winter. Because great stories can be found in every flip of the page and not by skipping the chapters in between. Nothing makes the future look so rosy with everything all figured out, itโ€™s not how itโ€™s supposed to be.

Foster this confidence that you are happy just by being you no matter what is going on because it mirrors back this great feeling and it attracts more of what you vibes. Mr. Perfect is not in one place or two. He is everywhere finding his way home. And when Godโ€™s clock tick, it will be one of the best days that you’ve been waiting for . So get up! Fix yourself and be ready ,he comes as a surprise.๐Ÿ’™

๐—ฅ๐—ฒ๐—ฐ๐—น๐—ฎ๐—ถ๐—บ ๐—ช๐—ต๐—ฎ๐˜’๐˜€ ๐—•๐—ฒ๐—ฒ๐—ป ๐—ฅ๐—ฒ๐—ฝ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ๐˜€๐˜€๐—ฒ๐—ฑ

You can laugh out loud and scream loneliness when nobody is around. Who cares?You can fake it all for everyoneโ€™s great show, to satisfy them and if that satisfies you. But how long can you stand with that? Youโ€™re getting older, your life gets shorter, youโ€™ve got one life to live and millions of choices to make, that is huge and if you donโ€™t know what your true needs are youโ€™re gonna be distorted and build lies to cover your guilty heart. You donโ€™t have to a be a slave of broken records in your life because we all have our own struggles, prayers that arenโ€™t answered, dreams that are still dreams, wounds that keeps on bleeding, at some point we have passed the same phase, it’s just that others don’t let these feelings stop them. Donโ€™t protect yourself with another fear, youโ€™re not inadequate you are authentic. Do your innerwork, stop pleasing and appeasing others. Itโ€™s not going to work out. If temporary approval of the society gives you a self-worth, youโ€™re lost. Come back! Don’t waste your life waiting for the freedom when you can set it yourself. Reclaim what has been repressed.-๐Ÿ

๐—ฆ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด๐—น๐—ฒ๐—ฑ๐—ผ๐—บ๐Ÿงก

Being single is cool and fun until.. All your bestfriends have walked down the aisle and marry some wonderful men and youโ€™re in the phase of finding Mr. Right Now cause you donโ€™t want to be left alone from the social circles, thatโ€™s when you play the game on and just hurry to finish the race right there. Seriously! Thatโ€™s a heavy weight of popular culture. People would always ask beyond what they see , if you arenโ€™t bringing any guy at home it bothers them to pop up the old age question of โ€œwฬณhฬณyฬณ aฬณrฬณeฬณ yฬณoฬณuฬณ sฬณtฬณiฬณlฬณlฬณ sฬณiฬณnฬณgฬณlฬณeฬณโ€? I mean why not? Itโ€™s not bad,not as bad as what you think. Something that isnโ€™t getting easier because there’s a certain age where you’re expected to be settled. We are all craving for great love, lavish weddings and the happy ever after would be absolutely amazing. But … A confident woman will not only settle for less. Because happiness is not always about being married when everybody does. Itโ€™s how you wisely conditioned your mind and heart to be in rhythm of todayโ€™s crazy world. Donโ€™t get curled up with how the world feeds you around, itโ€™s not a shorthand to be desperate and be ashamed of. In fact, youโ€™re in the most important relationship of your life. Itโ€™s about  self discovery and creating the dreams that you always wished of, instead of relying on societal’s notions to determine how should it be like.The more you have to let yourself be with yourself and accept yourself the more you’ll likely attract the person that is right fit for you. We can’t deny the fact that we love to be spoiled or be adored but if we think that we haven’t found him yet, let’s propose a toast to celebrate a sparkling singlehood ladies ๐Ÿฅ‚.

Chasing ๐˜พ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™™๐™š๐™ง๐™š๐™ก๐™ก๐™– days are over. No more waiting for the handsome Prince to bring you a shoe. That doesn’t work anymore. Go get your own  classy four-inch gucci stiletto heels. Be self sufficient and financially independent. Don’t play the same rules, be happy rolling solo, go to  boozy brunch on weekends, travel as much when times are tough or perfectly perfect, always walk with your heads up high and to never forget how beautiful you are. Eventhough your family and friends matters the choice is still yours to make, it’s your life to live. To have the courage to sit on a romantic beach without wishing there was someone else but you . Learn to embrace loneliness to deeply know yourself and call your shots. Enjoy the moment where you don’t have to answer to anyone about where you’re going, or when you’re going and when will you return, and to whom you will be going with. Just live your life like it’s golden. But the most important thing really is that if youโ€™re hoping to have a happy relationship in the future, you have to learn how to be happy being single first. As clichรฉ as it may sound but this has been one of the longest classic rule. “Love yourself before you let someone else loves you”.

๐—ฌ๐—ผ๐˜‚’๐—ฟ๐—ฒ ๐—ฎ WOMAN. ๐—ฌ๐—ผ๐˜‚’๐—ฟ๐—ฒ SINGLE.
๐—˜๐—ป๐—ท๐—ผ๐˜† ๐—ฏ๐—ฒ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด ๐—ฏ๐—ผ๐˜๐—ต…๐˜„๐—ถ๐˜๐—ต๐—ผ๐˜‚๐˜ ๐—ณ๐—ฒ๐—ฒ๐—น๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด ๐˜€๐—ผ๐—ฟ๐—ฟ๐˜†๐Ÿ