7 years ago I thought I had it perfect but I was wrong. I was frustrated, broken and confused. The only thing I̶ r̶e̶m̶e̶m̶b̶e̶r̶ I want to remember was I prayed ,called my friends for dinner, dated my bff, made coffee in the mid of the night, watched Netflix, cry in between when it reached the tip point of my emotion, slept at 4am and just bothered my head thinking a lot of stuffs that was almost about to explode at any moment of time. That’s how I coped in. As luck would have, it didn’t last long. When one door closes ,the window opens for sure. While driving back to Ubud this was how the conversation went through with my bestfriend playing the music “It only gets better by Wild”. There’s so much to look back and it’s fun while years are passing by, and yes every story lies which part to shut down or leave behind, apparently not everything taste like freshly baked donuts. Because the reality is some scenes we want to bury in topsy-turvy site and just forget about it totally that even dog won’t be able to find, if good memory hurts. After 365 days you’ll realized that it’s over and doing better this time. Well, way better.
On our way to our woody Bungalow we’ve seen Balinese people placing offerings in front of small shrines in their houses, a thin stick of burning incense surrounded by brightly colourful flowers and petals that brings balance and peace. It’s enthralling to see how devoted they are when it comes to their spiritual practices that I don’t normally witness back home. We tried to meet Cokorda, a Balinese healer for the sake of trying but he’s not around, there are others but we got lazy finding them. Mostly we don’t have an itinerary ready, adventure happens along the road. Backpacks, sneakers and sometimes flip flops or bikes is all you need in Ubud. No need for clay fancy things. Respect that won’t cost an arm and leg, the basic and simplest you should always have.
There are significant situations I’ve come to learn of, much greater scale than my tale. When we lose control over the ball game, the missed opportunities, the uncomfortable circumstances, we easily get pressured and act stupid sometimes. It could break us apart but what we don’t realized is that God may have saved us from something worse and brought us closer to what we actually prayed for. Have faith in blessings in disguise. Disappointments and annoyances will come and go, we can’t stop those. But we can practice to live everyday not feeding our attention and emotions with all the negativity around. Let’s change how we think. Let’s see life in a perpective of being fortunate and happy, the more we will feel contented and blessed. This came out in my mind when we stopped in a local coffee shop as what we used to do. I just couldn’t contain my happiness and be thankful for what had happened to where it lead me now. I’m glad it did. Truly God is amazing. -🍁